This at first seems to make Julian retract, his negative emotions containing themselves. Then, he releases them in a sigh.

His poor mother. She hadn't asked for the sacrifice. Did any mother who lost her son to war? At least he'd given her something to be proud of.

"I don't regret it, Guy. I'll never regret it. It's just...different, knowing for sure I'm not going back. But I...it's going to drive me mad, being here and not being able to do anything about what's going on back..." An ironic smile, something like a snarl. "Back on Earth."