I could never want that sort of responsibility. To hold the fate of a nation in one's hands is a solemn thing, and quite daunting.
[He will never step up into a position of power, not only because his ideals that have deep roots in communism would go against it, but because he does not ever want to feel that weight.
Having to bear the burdens of the information he has is enough, knowing that there are lives and plans and futures all resting on the outcome of his actions is enough gravity to grey the edges of the colourful life he lives. He will never ascend to any place of power, but what he is remains close enough that he could never want it.]
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[He will never step up into a position of power, not only because his ideals that have deep roots in communism would go against it, but because he does not ever want to feel that weight.
Having to bear the burdens of the information he has is enough, knowing that there are lives and plans and futures all resting on the outcome of his actions is enough gravity to grey the edges of the colourful life he lives. He will never ascend to any place of power, but what he is remains close enough that he could never want it.]